Outside my window lies
a world beyond the kitchen sink
so quiet like a frame
and painted in the tame movements of
Winter's approach.
The world yawns in daze
as days pass beneath sun's rays
and I long to crawl like the
Bear and wrap warm earth about me tight.
If winter were just one night!
If my being were the limit of
success and the definition of solidarity.
No, I am no monster with sharpened claws or fangs.
But like the leaves I long to fall within nature's arms and rest.
Do trees fall for less than this?
Am I bound to always wander,
unattached from closest kin?
Oh Nature, how she wanders
also with the world,
a movement always turning.
We are but mortals ever moving
and we alter so,
like brushes in the wind.
Some day the dawn breaks
deep within us all
and we too return to Nature's arms
like bright leaves or falling stars.
All must motion forth to rest.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Friday, October 23, 2009
The Adventures of Lewis Beacon: Part 2 - The Hookah Lounge (continued)
I was going to save this next slot for my MUTEMATH: After entry. But sinceI'm doing it as an article for the Chimes next week, I'm saving it until then.
This slot is instead will be taken by a continuation of my Lewis Beacon experiment. So without further adieu:
The three guys sat down at a table closer to the front and immediately gave some orders to the waitress. There was no way for Lewis to hear what they were saying. They looked perfectly normal, like old friends.
"Is that them," Lisa asked.
"Uh-huh," Lewis mouthed. He couldn't believe his eyes.
"Who's the guy with them? Is that--" Kyle began before Lewis cut him off.
"Brad... yeah."
"Well, he doesn't look bad at all," Karen said. Suddenly she smiled. "Did you just make that up?"
The whole group started to chuckle.
"No. Guys, it's not funny," Lewis tried to defend himself. "Those are the same three guys I saw in the locker room. And that middle one? That's Brad."
"Well if they were beating him up, why isn't he all bruised and scared?" Karen was annoyed that Lewis was continuing the joke.
"I... I don't know. I don't get it."
"Yo, maybe you should go over there and ask them" Hewett suggested.
The rest of them laughed.
"Dude, whatever you think you saw, you obviously didn't," Kyle said. "Maybe they were different guys."
Lewis looked at the rest of the group. They were all staring at him, waiting to see what he was going to do. He stood up, and then without a word, sat down next to Hewett, just barely squeezing onto the couch. It allowed him to watch Brad without obviously turning his body. There was a moment of awkward silence and then Karen broke it, asking Lisa how classes were going for her. Kyle piped in a tease at Lisa's poor study habits. Hewett pointed out that Kyle's were no better, and the conversation continued similarly as the hoses were passed around.
Brad, Brent, and Turk, despite their buddy-buddy appearances when they came into the lounge, were hardly talking now. Brent and Turk were watching a soccer game on a TV mounted on the opposite wall. Brad was sitting slumped back, staring absently at the hookah.
The waitress returned with their drinks. They had all ordered the same thing. After dropping them off, the waitress spotted Lewis' gaze and came over to him.
"How's everyone doing here," she asked cordially. "Can I get you another drink?"
Lewis realized she was talking to him and looked up.
"I'll have whatever those three are drinking." He nodded in the direction of Brent's table.''
"Sure thing." She turned to rest of the group and asked if they needed anything. Lewis continued staring at Brad. He hardly moved.
A minute later the waitress returned with Lewis' order. It was and energy drink called COCAINE. Lewis was thanking the waitress when Hewett suddenly elbowed him in the ribs.
"What?"
"It looks like your friend's going to the bathroom." Lewis looked up as Brad walked by their table and into the back. He was wearing a different shirt from before in the locker rooms, but it was still the same guy. The hood on his red hoodie was pulled over his head and the complexion of his face looked strange. Lewis couldn't tell if it was his imagination, or the dim lighting of the lounge that made Brad look like he was wearing makeup.
"I'm going to ask him if he's alright," Lewis said as he got up and followed Brad to the bathrooms.
There was a long, thin hallway that went around the kitchen and opened up into a small waiting room for the single restrooms. Brad was just closing the men's room door as Lewis came around the corner and jammed his shoe into the crack.
"What the fu--" Lewis quickly threw his hand over Brad's mouth.
"Shhh! I know what's going on, I want to help you."
Brad pulled his head away and looked angrily at Lewis.
"The fuck you know?"
"I know you've written an article on something those two guys you're with aren't happy about. I know they just roughed you over in the Men's Locker Room at school. I know you're here against your will."
Brad opened the door more.
"You don't know anything," he said, sounding much less certain than before. His eyes were shaky, darting at the hallway behind them and then back at Lewis. In the better lighting Lewis could tell he was wearing makeup. Finally Brad sighed.
"I can't fight them alone," he said. "I think if you hit anyone enough they'll give in."
"Let me help. I'll call the police right now, tell them you've been assaulted. They'll come in a few seconds and you can testify--"
"It's not that simple. If you want to help get my computer back. It's in my room, 250 Boer. I don't have a roommate. If you can get it, bring it to the document rack on the second floor of the library, tomorrow at five."
"But what about you?"
"I'll be fine. Just get my computer."
"They're adults. The police will--"
"--You really don't know anything. Thanks anyways, but you don't want to get involved."
"Library at five. Got it." Lewis turned and nearly ran into a girl walking towards the women's room.
After apologizing to the girl, Lewis went back and sat down next to Hewett. Everyone at his table was staring at him, waiting to hear what happened.
"Well?" They all seemed to ask in unison.
"I'll explain later. Right now I've got to go take care of something."
He pulled a crumple of money out of his pocket and counted out what he owed.
"Are you ditching us?" Lisa spouted in fake annoyance.
"Yeah. I'm going to help him."
As he left, Lewis realized Brent and Turk were finally talking to each other. He tried to look as naturally as possible as he strained to listen to their conversation. But the music and the people were too loud. Lewis hurried onto the street and down to his car. He had to get to Boer before Brent and Turk did.
This slot is instead will be taken by a continuation of my Lewis Beacon experiment. So without further adieu:
The three guys sat down at a table closer to the front and immediately gave some orders to the waitress. There was no way for Lewis to hear what they were saying. They looked perfectly normal, like old friends.
"Is that them," Lisa asked.
"Uh-huh," Lewis mouthed. He couldn't believe his eyes.
"Who's the guy with them? Is that--" Kyle began before Lewis cut him off.
"Brad... yeah."
"Well, he doesn't look bad at all," Karen said. Suddenly she smiled. "Did you just make that up?"
The whole group started to chuckle.
"No. Guys, it's not funny," Lewis tried to defend himself. "Those are the same three guys I saw in the locker room. And that middle one? That's Brad."
"Well if they were beating him up, why isn't he all bruised and scared?" Karen was annoyed that Lewis was continuing the joke.
"I... I don't know. I don't get it."
"Yo, maybe you should go over there and ask them" Hewett suggested.
The rest of them laughed.
"Dude, whatever you think you saw, you obviously didn't," Kyle said. "Maybe they were different guys."
Lewis looked at the rest of the group. They were all staring at him, waiting to see what he was going to do. He stood up, and then without a word, sat down next to Hewett, just barely squeezing onto the couch. It allowed him to watch Brad without obviously turning his body. There was a moment of awkward silence and then Karen broke it, asking Lisa how classes were going for her. Kyle piped in a tease at Lisa's poor study habits. Hewett pointed out that Kyle's were no better, and the conversation continued similarly as the hoses were passed around.
Brad, Brent, and Turk, despite their buddy-buddy appearances when they came into the lounge, were hardly talking now. Brent and Turk were watching a soccer game on a TV mounted on the opposite wall. Brad was sitting slumped back, staring absently at the hookah.
The waitress returned with their drinks. They had all ordered the same thing. After dropping them off, the waitress spotted Lewis' gaze and came over to him.
"How's everyone doing here," she asked cordially. "Can I get you another drink?"
Lewis realized she was talking to him and looked up.
"I'll have whatever those three are drinking." He nodded in the direction of Brent's table.''
"Sure thing." She turned to rest of the group and asked if they needed anything. Lewis continued staring at Brad. He hardly moved.
A minute later the waitress returned with Lewis' order. It was and energy drink called COCAINE. Lewis was thanking the waitress when Hewett suddenly elbowed him in the ribs.
"What?"
"It looks like your friend's going to the bathroom." Lewis looked up as Brad walked by their table and into the back. He was wearing a different shirt from before in the locker rooms, but it was still the same guy. The hood on his red hoodie was pulled over his head and the complexion of his face looked strange. Lewis couldn't tell if it was his imagination, or the dim lighting of the lounge that made Brad look like he was wearing makeup.
"I'm going to ask him if he's alright," Lewis said as he got up and followed Brad to the bathrooms.
There was a long, thin hallway that went around the kitchen and opened up into a small waiting room for the single restrooms. Brad was just closing the men's room door as Lewis came around the corner and jammed his shoe into the crack.
"What the fu--" Lewis quickly threw his hand over Brad's mouth.
"Shhh! I know what's going on, I want to help you."
Brad pulled his head away and looked angrily at Lewis.
"The fuck you know?"
"I know you've written an article on something those two guys you're with aren't happy about. I know they just roughed you over in the Men's Locker Room at school. I know you're here against your will."
Brad opened the door more.
"You don't know anything," he said, sounding much less certain than before. His eyes were shaky, darting at the hallway behind them and then back at Lewis. In the better lighting Lewis could tell he was wearing makeup. Finally Brad sighed.
"I can't fight them alone," he said. "I think if you hit anyone enough they'll give in."
"Let me help. I'll call the police right now, tell them you've been assaulted. They'll come in a few seconds and you can testify--"
"It's not that simple. If you want to help get my computer back. It's in my room, 250 Boer. I don't have a roommate. If you can get it, bring it to the document rack on the second floor of the library, tomorrow at five."
"But what about you?"
"I'll be fine. Just get my computer."
"They're adults. The police will--"
"--You really don't know anything. Thanks anyways, but you don't want to get involved."
"Library at five. Got it." Lewis turned and nearly ran into a girl walking towards the women's room.
After apologizing to the girl, Lewis went back and sat down next to Hewett. Everyone at his table was staring at him, waiting to hear what happened.
"Well?" They all seemed to ask in unison.
"I'll explain later. Right now I've got to go take care of something."
He pulled a crumple of money out of his pocket and counted out what he owed.
"Are you ditching us?" Lisa spouted in fake annoyance.
"Yeah. I'm going to help him."
As he left, Lewis realized Brent and Turk were finally talking to each other. He tried to look as naturally as possible as he strained to listen to their conversation. But the music and the people were too loud. Lewis hurried onto the street and down to his car. He had to get to Boer before Brent and Turk did.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
MUTEMATH: Before
The last two years of high school were hard times in my life.
For the first two years I fit in well where I wanted to, I was friends with a lot of people, I was a major personality in my 400-student, senior high, youth group, and I had a well-paying job at American Eagle that provided me with a continuous supply of very cheap, fashionable clothing.
Then one day my world crashed down around me. Some of my closest friends hurt me deeply. I lost confidence in myself, and thus also lost confidence in God whom I though would protect me.
I stopped listening to the factory-molded CCM that had for so long filled my music libraries, and sought out the more independent and underground of the Christian music world. As time went on, that also led to a discovery of quality secular music, aside from oldies and jazz. One of the first artists I came across on a Pandora-esqe online radio site was a band called Mute Math. They had only recently released an EP entitled Reset, and I soon found myself downloading it to enjoy the album in its entirety.
It was not long after that when I learned two of the members of Mute Math were originally a part of another old Christian band I was once a fan of--Earthsuit. I began following Mute Math pretty loyally, although I never had a chance to see them live for at least the next two years. At the time, I was into a different music scene which took most of my focus. Jazz, at the time, was much more important to me.
I asked for a turntable for Christmas, and my parents got it for me. The search was on to find my favorite artists on vinyl. But then I saw an advertisement for an exclusive Mutemath vinyl. They had just begun touring in promotion of their premier, self-titled album. Unable to attend the show in my area, I wasted no time in at least ordering the vinyl.
Then the hard times got worse with more friend drama. I felt like an outsider, and was ever-conscious of my brokenness. The album arrived in the mail not long after, and it became all that I ever played on that old turntable of mine. Their music was exactly my style. It was obscure and fresh, electronic and acoustic, and all around different from anything I had heard before. The lyrics spoke into my life, and a lot of the things I were feeling were touched on in one song or another.
It was music to get me through a hard time.
Tonight I am attending their concert, which is part of a promotional tour for their sophomore album. And let me tell you, I am excited!
For the first two years I fit in well where I wanted to, I was friends with a lot of people, I was a major personality in my 400-student, senior high, youth group, and I had a well-paying job at American Eagle that provided me with a continuous supply of very cheap, fashionable clothing.
Then one day my world crashed down around me. Some of my closest friends hurt me deeply. I lost confidence in myself, and thus also lost confidence in God whom I though would protect me.
I stopped listening to the factory-molded CCM that had for so long filled my music libraries, and sought out the more independent and underground of the Christian music world. As time went on, that also led to a discovery of quality secular music, aside from oldies and jazz. One of the first artists I came across on a Pandora-esqe online radio site was a band called Mute Math. They had only recently released an EP entitled Reset, and I soon found myself downloading it to enjoy the album in its entirety.
It was not long after that when I learned two of the members of Mute Math were originally a part of another old Christian band I was once a fan of--Earthsuit. I began following Mute Math pretty loyally, although I never had a chance to see them live for at least the next two years. At the time, I was into a different music scene which took most of my focus. Jazz, at the time, was much more important to me.
I asked for a turntable for Christmas, and my parents got it for me. The search was on to find my favorite artists on vinyl. But then I saw an advertisement for an exclusive Mutemath vinyl. They had just begun touring in promotion of their premier, self-titled album. Unable to attend the show in my area, I wasted no time in at least ordering the vinyl.
Then the hard times got worse with more friend drama. I felt like an outsider, and was ever-conscious of my brokenness. The album arrived in the mail not long after, and it became all that I ever played on that old turntable of mine. Their music was exactly my style. It was obscure and fresh, electronic and acoustic, and all around different from anything I had heard before. The lyrics spoke into my life, and a lot of the things I were feeling were touched on in one song or another.
It was music to get me through a hard time.
Tonight I am attending their concert, which is part of a promotional tour for their sophomore album. And let me tell you, I am excited!
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